biological

talked to my sis working and living abroad 3omins. ago over ym. i didn't grow up close to her actually. maybe because she would often talk in provocative way that simply echoes right down to my sensitivity. but in fairness to her, she has a generous heart other than her being more financially stable than the rest of us. we were not brought up mushy to each other as sisters and so i understand that we didn't have that biological ties or closeness like other siblings. anyway, our conversation went this way:

me: musta?(how are you?)
sis: unsa man? (what?)
me:ngumusta lang gud (just wanna know how are you)
sis: molakaw sa ko (i have to go )
me: ok
sis: chat lang ta sunod (chat to you nxt time)
sis: bye, regards to all.
(and then i chose not to reply..bad trip!)i went offline.

ang sweet namin ano? haha!sometimes i wonder, maybe if we're just neighbors, we could be even very good friends. :D

lights on

I was just playing with the light as I took this shot from our ante-room's wall and this is what transpires. Don't know how to define it other than the clarity of a heart-shaped figure. I find it cool!

good cry

well, big girls don't cry but they say that it's good to give your self a good cry at least once or twice a month.:) well, of course you don't just cry for no reason. at times we cry to unload a heavy heart. last night i gave myself a 'good cry'. boy!though i hate to admit that i cried for the same reason..for same rotten feeling..same person. well, it's really a good cry. i feel good after...more confident, not stronger though but just wiser..i little wiser.:)

Home

going home...

Oh hi doggie!

"It is no coincidence that man's best-friend cannot talk."

Obama is making a CHANGE..

Today President-Elect Barack Obama will start making a CHANGE. I say that I was one of those who rejoiced over Obama's winning during the election. He has still much to prove I know. And if it means a change or reform for the drowning economy all over the world, I pray that God will bless his plans.

The inauguration of Barack Obama today as the new President of U.S will surely be very remarkable for all people around the globe. We are now his spectators along the way..as he will make a CHANGE. Even though we cannot really predict the he will make a very good president in more years to come within his tenure, we can only continue to pray and hope that he can help us make a progressive and peaceful society. So help us God.

just monday..

nothing unusual today really. i guess the only thing is that my cousin paid me a visit and i watched "twilight" in dvd as my younger brother brought one tonight. well then at least, my curiosity about the movie is answered...nice film!

well its just another regular working day actually.. but am glad the sun starts to shine. :)

cold

i wonder what is it that makes me feel cold at this moment.
is it the weather or the world around me?
well that depends on how i see it.
but as of this moment..hmm..i guess both!haha!

oh well, just a thought.
while i cannot gather my thoughts for a good entry at this moment.
sometimes i just have to be content staring blankly at the gray sky.
without feeling agitated or thinking much.

if i cannot define things..so be it.
brrr!lamigg talaga ng weatherr!:O

Job Interview

I went out this morning for a job interview. I guess I have been used to dealing with job interviews..haha!Until I get hired. Well, as usual, have to have my English skills developed and honed. At least walang "nosebleed" akong mafi-feel kapag mga interviews na. I can only wish I can get the job. But then with the growing numbers of applicants nowadays wherever you go..you can only have your fingers crossed to survive as sole and ultimate survivor Philippines!haha!

Life is like that. I don't wanna call it an arena of big competitions but I want to consider it making an edge out of the hundred and one job-seekers. Unless the company adheres on "whom-you-know" than "what-you-know". It's a common thing but still that will be an opportunity for those who only see their luck in the hands of the under the table bosses and friends. Pero mas masarap matanggap sa trabaho kapag alam mong you deserve the job because you have the capability.

That's why I told myself, "just take it easy"..there is a space for me still wherever I may be. So help me God!:)

The vampire got me hooked

I have been reading "Twilight "- Stephanie Meyer for several days now. Wattpad.com has been too kind to give hope to those who cannot avail the book nor wasn't able to watch the film. I know the reading would really take longer esp. when you realize that you no longer have a 20/20 vision. sigh! Sometimes I have to fight with it but can't help it. I want to finish the story. It's not just the love story that makes me so interested of it BUT the characters themselves. The lessons learned and the dramas all in one total package. It's been a very long time since I got hooked to reading novels but this time, I feel rejuvenated. I feel like am young again while learning life's greatest lessons.

Hope you'll enjoy the read as much as I do!:)

they quack

i was so overwhelmed seeing hundreds of them marching in and so i took picture. this was during our last visit in our relatives at the province together with my cousins. we had fun then for we very seldom get to visit the place. we made sure that every travel is made grandest. :D

still..

i still think of him. it's been more than a year since he left and it feels pathetic to realize that I still think of him. been trying to hide it and pretend that my world continues to cycle without him in my system..but he remains taunting me in my solitude.

from where we used to be.. to where i must used to. i keep telling myself, must be happy..i must be happy..i must.what a good way to start a year.. revelation and acceptance for myself. i know i can let go..

soon.

the Confessions

He met my eyes again, and they were surprisingly tender.

"And for all that," he continued, "I'd have fared better if I had exposed
us all at that first moment, than if now, here � with no witnesses and
nothing to stop me � I were to hurt you."

I was human enough to have to ask. "Why?"

"Isabella." He pronounced my full name carefully, then playfully ruffled
my hair with his free hand. A shock ran through my body at his casual
touch. "Bella, I couldn't live with myself if I ever hurt you. You don't
know how it's tortured me." He looked down, ashamed again. "The thought
of you, still, white, cold� to never see you blush scarlet again, to
never see that flash of intuition in your eyes when you see through my
pretenses� it would be unendurable." He lifted his glorious, agonized
eyes to mine. "You are the most important thing to me now. The most
important thing to me ever."

--From "Twilight" - Stephanie Meyer