Keep my brain busy

It's been more than a year that I took the courage to let go of the things I wish didn't come to change. But there are realities about being rational that are beyond our control. Change thrills in and speeds on relentlessly like flowing water--not a care in the world whether it might affect human existence like eternity. And so I groped for something that hopefully will fill me with purpose. And to keep my brain busy is the option I had to take wishing that in my little brain's capacity, I will have more to achieve than staying too long under a fever of distress and regret for falling in love with someone who never even loved me in the first place. Times when I felt like I never wanted to see any room for rethinking or recapitulating what's been lost and how I came to be a loser. Times when I hated every solitary moments for it'll only leads me back to memories I so long wanted to let go. And so I ventured into something that might make me the busiest person in order to hide the loneliest emotions.

I took lessons. I keep my mind preoccupied with the practicalities of things than those that entails emotional investments. Now, I can't tell that I have conquered what my heart is aching for. But at least upon feeding my brain I now know the difference between loving and letting go.

leading the way

This little highway leads to the place where i first learned my ABC's. It used to be a muddy way before. Not as concrete as how it is today. And looking back, I simply miss those little footprints that we'd left behind each time we trudged here from home.

nature

The Chocolate Hills..What more can be truly wonderful than the wonder of nature!

Mud and mad heart

Pasensya na kung gusto kong mag emo ngayon..tanong ko lang sa buwan: "Kailan kaya ako magmamahal ng di nasasaktan?:(

light and shade

A tree paving its way for the sun to set.
"Let us be like this tree..paving our way for the best to come."

I love this shot!

pathway

No matter how bleak you think your pathway is leading to-- there is still an ANSWER waiting at the end of it for you.

alone

A pink one in the midst of white ones--
ALONE yet making a DIFFERENCE.

Dear God,

I am confused...but am not sad.
I am feeling anxious..but I don't wanna keep falling.
I don't understand people..I don't understand why others are mean.
I guess it's their response to life..when they thought it's not fair.

Help me God.
I wanted to go on.
Out of the life in a noise..I wanna feel the silence.
In your warm embrace God, hold me like no one else can.


your daughter,
little woman

in the beginning..

in the beginning there was media technology.
i surfed...i searched..and then i found~~ the blogging space.

i started to think..i visualized.
i made it concrete..my imagination and thoughts connive~~ i blog!

this is my online detour.
i am es....signing on!