i'm on emo! (haha!)

late bloomer po ako. i was already 30 when i had my first boyfriend. my first but already serious one. (i had flings before we met but none went serious) anyway, it was a long distance relationship, an on and off one. only to find out later that we may be in the same boat and yet we're no longer sailing into the same direction. well, every relationship is a two-way process. and so in that part, we both have our shortcomings. there's no reason of pointing finger. the sad thing was that. ours had no closure. his last gift to me was silence.

and he broke that silence only when i realized that i've had enough and it's time to move on.

will share more..SOON! take care everyone. :)

thoughts..

>>>saka kona iisipin kung saan at ano ako bukas makalawa...

>>for now, i just have to be thankful for this blessing and opportunity though along with this is a big responsibility.

>>i know things don't always have to go in proportion. and that sometimes there is much more to not knowing where we're heading.

and oh yeah, i can only be content.

out here on my own..

"i may not WIN but i can be STRONG..."

thanks to this old song, i keep going.

a beauty queen's stupid comment...

"baka kailangan nya lang yun for personal use..".. eto yung naging komento ni Carlene Aguilar tungkol sa pinakakontrobersyal na 'sex video' ngayon ni Katrina at Hayden bilang depensa naman ni Carlene kay Hayden.

AND I was like huuuwaaatttt???kailangan for personal use?anong personal use yun?unless Kho is a sex maniac?!

nakakaloka naman etong si Carlene Aguilar! sana di nalang sya nag-comment ano?dahil nainis lang lang naman ako sa stupid comment nya! bilang isang dating crowned beauty queen, tama ba namang maging ganyan ang reaction nya?!hala!!^O^

pressure...

i will be having my demo presentation first thing in the morning tomorrow and until now, it seems to me that I still cannot figure out things and gather my thoughts altogether. wheeeww! Am i just pressured over the fact that my career might end or continue after this presentation?! OH God! ONly you can help me get through with this... i know i cannot possibly do things without YOUR wisdom.

Please please readers...include me in your prayers!

Bukas na talaga, wala ng urongan ito!Ajahhh!!:D

template renovation..

baka isipin nyo naliligaw kayo sa bagong blog..binago kolang po ang ayos. konting renovation lang at pag-i-improve. di ko naman sure kung talagang nag-improve nga ba.hehe! ala lang..medyo, nasa mood lang mag-ayos.

pero ang totoo wala naman talaga sa ganda ng template yun eh, nasa laman blog. pero inaamin ko, minsan senseless talaga ibang post ko!pero mas mabuti na dito ako maglabas ng feelings bah, kesa naman i-utot kolang, baho nun di'ba?:D

si Lord talaga!

lately i've been battling with not really the hardest but still a tough decision for me.

looking back, some years had passed, my cousins invited me to join a certain religious league. it's not really a religion though the members literally pray thousand Hail Mary's every once in a while in a week and do the worshiping thing for like three to four hours every friday. it's a flock of believers that attest that GOD does really exist. i know religious org. is one thing that will deepen one's faith and i gave it a try. but being home already late after every session, my spirit is willing but the body is weak. and i grew weary. i stopped. my cousins would still invite me once in a while but i've had alibis. i never wanted to refuse a very good offer esp. if it's about giving favor to God. it's making me feel guilty.

and so i told myself, "this is a big organization where the entire davao region represents..if i want to really serve you God, i will begin it in my own little community".

to my surprise, God must have been listening that He took it seriously(lol). never in my entire life did i ever wish to handle a big responsibility in a certain community. yes, i want to serve but i never aimed to lead. i never knew what leadership is. even when i was a student, i was content to be just a member of any club or an spectator of everybody's show. i was awfully a complacent and reserved person.

but because of that one instance, people around started to keep pushing me to deal with it when i seemed then to have no choice but take a hold of it. but then as soon as i take charge of my own community, i feel like i've had more trying moments. and sometimes i'd wished that i could go back to my own comfort zone. to hardly able to bring people with us even for an hour moment with God in our little chapel, it's a failure to admit that i've served my own community. yes, i may have served but not to some extent. i've had moments when i felt like quitting.

sabi ko, si Lord talaga!kung saan ako mahina duon ako susubukin.

it's summer here, my co-teachers have been asking me to handle another summer class program in the university. they'd been waiting for me to submit my forms for formal application. BUt i have not decided yet because my community also needs me. they need someone to handle catechism for kids this summer and been hoping to have my approval. i serve in a community where most children are exposed to some parents with wrong vices. i know this is about time that i have to be even more responsible for them. and i'm torn between work and my service to God (literally). i need the job to sustain my 'needs' but of course i NEED God in all ways.

kaya sabi ko uli, "si Lord talaga!".

i remember this passage, "man shall not live by bread alone but on every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God."

i can only be content.
i know God will still satisfy me.

"Twilight" script in trash?

A woman finds "Twilight" sequel scripts in trash.

Here's the news:

ST. LOUIS - A St. Louis beauty salon owner accidentally happened upon one of the hottest Hollywood scripts — the pages from an upcoming "Twilight" sequel — in a trash bin.

Casey Ray found two scripts, one for the vampire sequel "New Moon" and one for a different movie titled "Memoirs." She decided to return them to the studio making the films. In return, she was invited to attend the movies' premieres, her lawyer said.

Ray recently was waiting for her fiance to finish work when she spotted two scripts in a trash container. She was outside a hotel where actors were staying during a St. Louis shoot for the upcoming George Clooney movie, "Up in the Air."

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Full Moon

Last night, at around past five in the afternoon, I was so engrossed with my sight-seeing from the veranda that I even captured this full moon as the night started to envelope the sky. As the day was closing, I realized one thing. And that is to cherish and savor each moment like there's no tomorrow and you'll be happy and content.

Pacman vs. Hitman

Pambihira naman ang laban na 'yon!Para lang sandaling nanaginip si Pacman tapos nang magising, si Hitman naman ang tulog!hehe! Bakit naman ganun ang laro?ambilis yata ng pangyayari!Eh lumipad pa mga lolo nating politiko sa bayan ng banyaga at nagwaldas ng libo-libong pamasahe para lang mapanuod ang larong 'to tapos ganun lang kabilis! Eh, kung sanay ipinamahahagi nalang sana ng mga lolong politiko natin yung pinamasahe nila sa mga naghihirap ngayon dito sa bansa natin, baka mas marami pang matutuwa..di kasi practical. Pakialamera din ako ano?haha!Pakialam ko ba naman sa pera nila kung paano nila lustayin?!:P

Anyways, eto namang si Hatton, sugod ng sugod lang, parang nasobraan sa excitement. Ayan tuloy, napuruhan sya, knock down pa! Kakatuwa talaga tayo ano?Ay ako lang pala!Nangingialam ng diskarte!hehe!

Congrats Manny..balato naman dyan!:D

karma

ang tao kapag pinili mong di maintindihan at walang pagpapatawad sa puso...

it would be a very sad world.

--And so just show goodness and life will simply be good in return.

After all, at the end of this journey, it's not between you and them..

BUT it's between YOU and GOD!:)