blessings

"the biggest blessing in our lives is simply the presence of people who care much, whose love is for real, and see us much beyond ourselves."

Have a joyful New Year to all!:)

Paskong Pinas

Halos lahat ng kwento ng mga OFWs na nag spend ng Christmas sa ibang bansa isa lang ang konklusyon: iba pa rin ang pasko sa 'Pinas. Hindi madali ang mamuhay sa ibang bansa. Nakakapangulila pa lalo kapag may mga mahal ka sa buhay na kelangan mong maiwan para lang matugunan ang pangangailangan ng pamilya. Para mabuhay. Kaya nga naman hanga ako sa tatag ng loob ng ating mga OFWs. Minsan naluluha ako tuwing nakakabasa ako ng mga kwento ng mga kababayan nating nagtatrabaho sa ibang bansa at nangungulila sa mga mahal sa buhay. Lalo na't di sila nakakauwi kapag Pasko. Kahit pa siguro madali nalang ang komyunikasyon sa panahon ngayon, iba parin yung nasa tabi mo lang ang mga taong mahal mo.

Masaya nga naman ang pasko sa atin. Kaya lang naninibago na rin ako. Malapit nang matapos ang Pasko pero madalang nalang ang mga carolers. Ano na kayang nangyari sa mga nakagawian na natin tuwing Pasko? Epekto din ba eto ng global warming?hehe! Naalala ko tuloy nung bata pa ako. Madalas kaming mag caroling ng mga kapatid at pinsan ko. At madalas din nahahabol ng aso.:D

Hahayyy!talaga nga sigurong kakaiba ang pasko sa Pinas. Lalo na't huwag nating walain yung bahagi na ng ating tradisyon.

Christmas symbols

The nativity or the "belen" that pictures the image of Mary, Joseph and the baby Jesus in the manger is always presented in the Catholic church to give life to how God fulfilled His promise for sending His only son for all mankind.
Christmas wouldn't come to be if not for Jesus' birth.

The Christmas tree on the other way around has many reasons for being symbolic during Christmastime. Too many assumptions and beliefs have crop up for having Christmas tree as another sign that Christmas is nearing.

But whether we have these symbols or not as we celebrate Christ's birth, may we never go too far from the real meaning of the Christmas celebration. And that Christmas is not only seen in the gift giving and in the sumptuous food that we serve on our table during the occasion. The real spirit of it all should have been in our hearts who is Jesus. It is how we welcome Him as part of our life as Christians.

Merry Christmas to everyone! God bless us all throughout the year and more years to come!:)

the meaning of Christmas

When I see people runnin' here and there, buying gifts and the things that complete their wish list, I couldn't help but think how Christmas exactly means for them. Of course it's hard to judge that Christmas for these people might just only be about the things that their money can buy but not those that money cannot just buy. But as i see it, that's how people act, that's how people are too preoccupied. In the back of my mind, I can only wish for one thing: may we not forget what Christmas is truly all about. The real motives of God to send HIs only son to save mankind from sinfulness. And the bottom line of it all: God's LOVE to us. No less than love.

And so let each Christmas be worth-remembering through the baby Jesus who is born in the manger. Let Christmas be unto the unseen and priceless. Let Christmas be LOVE!

Have a wonderful Christmas to one and all!:)

a common emo...

Manhid na nga talaga siguro ako. Naglibot ako sa blogosphere and medyo nakibasa sa mga sentimyento ng halos 90% bloggers. At ang kadalasan dahilan ng kanilang pag-i-emo ay pag-ibig.

I say, "I've been there." and its not easy ang madaya sa pag-ibig. Mag-iisang taon narin mula nang akoy mukhang basang-sisiw na naiwan sa isang sulok habang dinadama ang epekto ng pagkabigo. Oh, yeah! I cried buckets! Pero tuwing naalala kong may ego at pride pa pala ako, tinatanong ko sarili ko kung bakit masyado akong nagpakalunod sa emosyon ng mga panahon na'yon ng dahil lamang sa isang walang kwentang lalaki. Call me bitter para isiping ako ang dehado at di sya. Pero ano paba ang mas masakit sa ang malamang pagkatapos ng lahat ay nalaman ko nalang na ikinasal na sya!

Gusto kong sampalin ang sarili ko sa aking nalaman at baka sakali'y ako lamang ay nagbulag- bulagan para umasang may bukas parin na naghihintay sa aming dalawa. Ngayon heto ako, pagkatapos ng isang walang kwentang pagluluksa dahil sa pagkabigo. Natuto narin kahit papano. At nakikibasa nalang sa kwento ng ibang nasasaktan. Isang bagay ang aking natutunan sa puntong iyon, "I have to pick myself up before it's too late and I will end up a total loser". Sabi nga nila, panahon lang ang makapagsasabi kung kelan mo mahahanap ang tunay na pag-ibig. Minsan sa isip ko, ayaw konang umasa na darating pa iyon. Ngunit gusto kong maging positibo sa buhay at idaan sa dasal ang lahat ng aking nararamdaman.

Masasabi kong masaya na ako ngayon. Dahil pinili kong maging masaya. Sa tuwing nagkokomento ako sa kabiguan ng iba, isa lang sa nais kong iparating, " kaya mong maging masaya dahil karapatan mong maging masaya."

pink shoelace

it's unusual to see young males wearing pink shoelace unless he's a homo. my bestfriend's younger brother was on his way on a date with his girlfriend. i noticed that he was wearing pink shoelaces and so here's a sample. unique huh! ang mga kabataan talaga ngayon, kung anu-anong gustong imbentuhin. youngsters nowadays have grown to be even more carefree and aggressive in terms of fashion and style. sarap naman bumalik sa age nila!hehe!

i-translate jud!

Saw this from a small business establishment along downtown area. I don't think we still have reason not to undertand it, huh!~:D Honestly, naa jud uban na maglibog asa padung ang "pull" ug ang "push"!hehe!..nya naa pud uban na di mobasa ug sign-age..bantog guro mao na ni resulta!:P

camera trick

this entry is insignificant... i just figured mukhang nadaya ako ng camera ko ah..ba't di yata lumitaw dito varicose vein ko sa paa?!:D

well, i guess its the sunlight hitting that surface or just a camera trick.. or both! hayyystt!.. insignificant entry indeed!

up late..

i don't recall when was the last time i got addicted to staying up late at night. kahit pa nakakaubos pasensya ang pc kong laging nagha-hang. but one thing for sure.. nakasayan ko narin ang ganitong routine. i know it's not healthy. pero sa ganitong oras kolang mas kayang mag-isip..magmuni-muni. yun bang kahit nagmukha na akong gago dahil ang totoo i am just plainly talking to my self here ay mas at peace utak ko. 'coz only in this way where i can pour down my emotion.

pinagod ako ng prc ng araw na'to. pinagod ng kaiisip kung pa'no ko buuin ang natitirang pera ko sa bulsa para lang makapag-register at makasali sa oathtaking. honestly, i am not used to joining social gatherings. di naman ako anti-social. naiilang lang talaga akong makipagsosyalan lalo na kapag ihahanay ako sa mga taong class.

at least ok na..sa awa ng Diyos naipasa korin ang exam. kahit naiisip ko na naman ngayon yung kantang "do you know where you going to"..at least alam kona kahit papano kung ano direksyon ko..mahirap parin hanapin ang swerte..pero kung itataas ko naman kay God lahat ng plano ko, hindi naman siguro nya ako pababayaan.

but i still couldn't help from asking myself what will i become many years from now. neurotic na yata ako.hek!makatulog na nga!:)

the waiting is over..

Finally, the LET exam result has come out.
And I made it..thank God I passed!
Yahoo!!:D

..next step: application blues na naman!hehe!

ako

gusto kong magblog pero wala akong maisip na entry. di pa naman ako inaantok.

naisip kolang, isang buwan ko narin inaabangan result ng LET exam ko. kahit pinipilit kong paniwalain utak ko na kinaya ko naman ang exam, pero mahirap parin mag-expect sa walang katiyakang pakikibaka kung positibo nga ba o hindi. mahirap nang maging sobrang confident, ayaw ko nang masaktan sa pag-aakalang, this time--tama ang mga desisyon ko sa buhay. natuto na akong lumaban at harapin kung anong meron at tanggapin kung anong wala sa akin. pinatibay na talaga ako ng panahon. nasasaktan parin naman..pero kaya nang ngumiti pagkatapos.

ako na nga siguro eto--kahit minsan tanga parin..naive, pero mas mataas na ang EQ. Hahayy, hanggang ngayon naaala ko parin si big bug. nag-asawa na nga pala sya. sana makalimutan kona sya. kahit paulit-ulit kong tinatanong sarili ko "how did i come to love him." pero sabi nga nila, di naman kini-question ang mga bagay na ganyan. sana lang, "makalimutan kona sya.."

misty flower

"Now I know that there's a reason why the rain falls."

Keep my brain busy

It's been more than a year that I took the courage to let go of the things I wish didn't come to change. But there are realities about being rational that are beyond our control. Change thrills in and speeds on relentlessly like flowing water--not a care in the world whether it might affect human existence like eternity. And so I groped for something that hopefully will fill me with purpose. And to keep my brain busy is the option I had to take wishing that in my little brain's capacity, I will have more to achieve than staying too long under a fever of distress and regret for falling in love with someone who never even loved me in the first place. Times when I felt like I never wanted to see any room for rethinking or recapitulating what's been lost and how I came to be a loser. Times when I hated every solitary moments for it'll only leads me back to memories I so long wanted to let go. And so I ventured into something that might make me the busiest person in order to hide the loneliest emotions.

I took lessons. I keep my mind preoccupied with the practicalities of things than those that entails emotional investments. Now, I can't tell that I have conquered what my heart is aching for. But at least upon feeding my brain I now know the difference between loving and letting go.

leading the way

This little highway leads to the place where i first learned my ABC's. It used to be a muddy way before. Not as concrete as how it is today. And looking back, I simply miss those little footprints that we'd left behind each time we trudged here from home.

nature

The Chocolate Hills..What more can be truly wonderful than the wonder of nature!

Mud and mad heart

Pasensya na kung gusto kong mag emo ngayon..tanong ko lang sa buwan: "Kailan kaya ako magmamahal ng di nasasaktan?:(

light and shade

A tree paving its way for the sun to set.
"Let us be like this tree..paving our way for the best to come."

I love this shot!

pathway

No matter how bleak you think your pathway is leading to-- there is still an ANSWER waiting at the end of it for you.

alone

A pink one in the midst of white ones--
ALONE yet making a DIFFERENCE.

Dear God,

I am confused...but am not sad.
I am feeling anxious..but I don't wanna keep falling.
I don't understand people..I don't understand why others are mean.
I guess it's their response to life..when they thought it's not fair.

Help me God.
I wanted to go on.
Out of the life in a noise..I wanna feel the silence.
In your warm embrace God, hold me like no one else can.


your daughter,
little woman

in the beginning..

in the beginning there was media technology.
i surfed...i searched..and then i found~~ the blogging space.

i started to think..i visualized.
i made it concrete..my imagination and thoughts connive~~ i blog!

this is my online detour.
i am es....signing on!